Episode Transcript
[00:00:00] This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world while she looked so sad and photographed. I absolutely love her when she smiles.
[00:00:15] How many days in a year she woke up with hope but she only found tears and I can be so insincere. Making her promise is never for real as long as she stands there waiting wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes how many days disappear when you look in the mirror? So how do you choose your clothes never wear as well the next day. Your hair never falls and white the same way you never seem to run out of things to say.
[00:00:43] This is the story of a girl who cried a river and drowned the whole world. And why she looks so sad and photographs. I absolutely love her when she smiles, I'm back, then I'm holding, I'm smiling. She leave and she go then she leaves for me says she leaves for me who won't motivate she comes out and she goes down on me and I'll make you smile like a drug for you do whatever what you want to do coming over you keep on smiling what we go through one stop through the rhythm that divides you and it speaks to you like the coast to the birds drop another line like a go with the curse coming like a freak so make the stage we gave them the key Jake's place to say I want something else get me through this semitone kind of lie baby, baby I want something else I'm not listening when you say goodbye the sky was gold if you froze I was taking tips of it to my nose smiling in the pictures you would take doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break it won't stop I won't come down and keep stopped with the TikTok rhythm I bumped for the drop and then I bumped up I took the hit that I was living then I bumped again then I bumped again said how do I get back there to the place where I fell asleep inside you how do I get myself back to the place where you said I want something else to get me through this send me some kind of lift baby, baby I want something else I'm not missing when you say goodbye can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
[00:02:56] I didn't mean to call you that I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me please tell me please tell me why the car's in the front yard came through the window last night and you're gone it's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy. Cause every now and then I kick the living.
[00:03:44] The smoke alarm is going off and there's a cigarette still burning.
[00:03:51] Please tell me why the car is in the front yard and I'm sleeping with the clothes on.
[00:04:05] Came through the window last night and you're gone, gone go ahead. As you waste your days with thinking when you're for everyone stand another day and you've had your fill of sinking with the light felt in your hands are shaking cold these hands are mental all you gotta keep is strong move along, move along like I know you do and even when your hope is done move along, move along just to make it through. Move alive, move alive she says she's no good with words, but I mean worse but started out a joke of a romantic stuck to my tongue. Weighed down with words too over dramatic. Tonight it's a cat get much worse. Whereas no one should ever feel like I'm two quarters and a heart down. And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds. These words are all I have to write them just to get by tenses we're falling apart to have time to.
[00:05:45] These are the lies. You don't believe in this. This is the way.
[00:06:04] Stacey, can I come over after school?
[00:06:10] After school we can hang around by the poo. Boo boo boo boo boo boo. Hang by the pool.
[00:06:21] Did your mom get bye from her business trip?
[00:06:29] Is she there or is she trying to give me the slip?
[00:06:36] You know I'm not the little boy that I used to be.
[00:06:40] I'm all grown up now, baby, can't you see? Stacey's mom has got it going on. She's all I want and I've waited for so long. Stacy, can't you see? You're just not the girl for me? I know it might be wrong, but I'm in love with Stacy's mom.
[00:07:09] Faster. We're falling, we're stopping. It's all in. We're running in circles again.
[00:07:16] Just as things were looking up. You said it wasn't good enough, but still we're trying one more time.
[00:07:25] Maybe we're just trying when really it's closer than it is too far.
[00:07:32] Cause I'm in it too deep. And I'm trying to keep up a thought in my head instead of going under. Cause I'm here too deep. And I'm trying to keep up a thought in my head instead of going under. Instead of going under.
[00:07:58] Seems like each time I'm with you I lose my mind because I bend it over backwards. Too late, it's one thing to complain but when you're driving me insane. Well then I think it's time that we took a break.
[00:08:14] Maybe we're just trying too hard when really it's closer than it is too far.
[00:08:21] Cause I'm in too deep. And I'm trying to keep up above.
[00:08:30] Too deep. And I'm trying to keep up. A thought in my head instead of going. I never said I'm going to start up going. And she's going out to forget they were together.
[00:08:49] All that time he was taking her for granted. She wants to see if there's more then he gave. She's looking for.
[00:09:02] He's tripping on the phone. I doesn't want her out there and alone. I know he's losing it. She don't care. Everybody hurt again. Say. I don't wanna be alone. I don't wanna be alive. Now if you got nothing left. Say. I don't wanna be in love. I don't wanna be in love. Back enough. Now you got a reason.
[00:09:48] You change your mind like a girl.
[00:09:53] Change your clothes.
[00:09:55] Yeah, you pm's like a bitch. I would know.
[00:10:03] And you I would think.
[00:10:06] Always speak cryptically, I should know.
[00:10:12] They are no good for me.
[00:10:17] Cause you're hot, then you're cold. You're yes, then you know you're in and you're out. You're up and you're down. You're wrong. When it's white, it's black and it's white. We fight, we break up, we kiss, we make up. You don't really wanna stay. No, you don't. You don't really wanna tell me what I got out. You're hot, then you're cold. You're. Yes, then you know you're in and you're out. You're out in your dad. Here's a thing. We started out friends.
[00:10:51] It was cool, it was up to end. Yeah, yeah.
[00:10:57] Since you've been gone.
[00:11:02] You're dedicated, you took the time.
[00:11:06] Wasn't long till I called you mine.
[00:11:09] Yeah, yeah.
[00:11:12] Since you've been gone.
[00:11:15] And all you'd ever hear me say. Is how I picture me with you.
[00:11:22] That's all you ever hear me say. But since you've been gone.
[00:11:29] I can't breathe. All the first time. I'm so living on the air.
[00:11:37] Thank you.
[00:11:38] Now I get what I want.
[00:11:49] Let me know that I've done wrong. When I've known this all along. I go around a time or two. Just to waste my time with you. Tell me all that you thrown away.
[00:12:06] Find out games you don't want to play.
[00:12:09] You are the only one that needs to know.
[00:12:15] I'll keep you my dirty little secret.
[00:12:20] Don't tell it. Why not? You'll be just another regret.
[00:12:28] My dirty little secret.
[00:12:31] I have visions, I was in them? I was looking into the mirror?
[00:12:37] To see a little bit clearer? The rottenness said evil in me memories, my can't forget the curves of your body?
[00:12:50] And when I feel a bit naughty?
[00:12:53] I run it up the flagpole? And see who still looks? But no one ever does fall? I'm not sick, but I'm not well?
[00:13:03] And I'm so hard?
[00:13:07] Cause I've been found?
[00:13:11] Been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding?
[00:13:19] And I don't even own a tv.
[00:13:24] Put me in the hospital for nerves? And then they had to commit me.
[00:13:29] You told them all I was crazy.
[00:13:32] They cut off my legs. Now I'm an amputee. Muted?
[00:13:38] I'm not sick, but I'm not well?
[00:13:43] And I felt hard cause I never.
[00:13:52] I'm not sick, but I'm not well?
[00:13:56] And it's a wild.
[00:14:04] Here we go again? I kind of want to be more than friends? So take it easy on me? I'm afraid you're never satisfied.
[00:14:17] Here we go again? We'll stick like animals? We play pretty.
[00:14:22] You're just a cannibal? And I'm afraid I won't get out alive?
[00:14:29] No, I won't sleep tonight?
[00:14:33] Oh, I want to know.
[00:14:37] What are you waiting for? Take a bite of my heart tonight I want to move.
[00:14:47] What are you waiting for?
[00:14:50] What are you waiting for? Say goodbye to my heart tonight.
[00:14:58] Here we are again. I feel the chemicals kicking in. It's getting heavy and I wanna run and hide.
[00:15:07] I wanna run and hide.
[00:15:10] I do it every time. You're killing me now?
[00:15:17] And I won't be denied by you. The animal inside of you.
[00:15:25] I want to know, oh, what are you waiting for? Take a bite of my heart tonight?
[00:15:34] I want to know what are you waiting for?
[00:15:41] What are you waiting for? Say goodbye to my heart tonight.
[00:15:47] The world is quiet. Hush us, we both can't fight it. It's us that made this mess. Why can't you wonder?
[00:15:58] Oh, I will sleep tonight.
[00:16:20] You say that I'm messing with your head.
[00:16:25] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
[00:16:29] With your friend.
[00:16:31] Yeah.
[00:16:33] Love hurts whether it's right or wrong.
[00:16:37] Yeah, yeah, yeah. I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun.
[00:16:43] Yeah, yeah. You're on your knees begging please stay with me.
[00:16:51] But honestly, I just need to be a little crazy all my life I've been good. Now all I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. If you love me, if you hate me, you can save me, baby, baby, all my life I've been good. And now. Whoa.
[00:17:21] What in the hell?
[00:17:24] What?
[00:17:25] What?
[00:17:27] What?
[00:17:29] I'll take you home if you don't leave me at the front door.
[00:17:36] Your body's cold but girl, we're getting so warm.
[00:17:42] And I was thinking of ways that I could get inside. Get inside.
[00:17:48] So now you're falling in love. Let me go now. This thing out here we go now. She doesn't like this way your lips tremble but your eyes are in a straight stare.
[00:18:25] We're on the bed but your clothes are laying right there.
[00:18:31] And now it's thinking of places that I could hideous.
[00:18:37] So now you're falling in love. Let me go now.
[00:18:42] Here we go. She touches like this, will you do it like that now? She touches like this, will you touch her eyes?
[00:19:09] Paper bags and plastic hearts. All our belongings and shopping carts goodbye, but we got one more night let's get drunk and ride around and make peace with an empty town we can make it right probably to ever get yesterday we'll make the greatest game we won't hear a word.
[00:19:58] I'm gonna make it bend and break say a prayer but let the good times roll in case God doesn't show and I want these words to make things right. But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life.
[00:20:17] But who does he think he is? Is that the worst you got better puts your fingers back to the key.
[00:20:51] I took her out, it was a Friday night I woke alone to get the feeling right we started making out and she took off my pants but then I turned on the tv and that's about the time she walked away from me. Nobody likes you when you're 23 and I should more up here's my tv shows what the hell is add? My friends say I shit at my age what's my age again? What's my age again?
[00:21:21] And later on on the drive home I called her mom from a pay phone I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail the state looks down on me and that's about the time that's walked around by me. Nobody likes you when you're 23 they asked her what the hell is called I need my friends say I should outrage what's my age again? What's my age?
[00:22:11] Try your best, try everything you can and don't you worry what they tell themselves your own way it just takes some time. Little girl in a little after ride everything will be just fine, Elvis. And everything will be all right. All right now we just all it early round and sugar will go and dance swinging I'll be your number one with a bullet a loading guy complex talking bullet will go and dance and sugar will go in dancing I'll be your number one with a bullet alone it got back talking bullet I'm all there you bogging for yet? I been dying to tell you anything you want to hear cause that's just who I am this week lying the glass next to the mausoleum I'm just not in your bedroom and make your name we're sleeping and sleeping for the road we're going down the sugar wolf going down swinging I'll be your number one with a bullet a lunar girl come let's start getting bullied we're going down in a new year round and sugar wound going down swinging I be another one with a bullet a lonely guy come back struggling check yes, Juliet are you with me? Rain is falling down on the sidewalk I won't go until you come outside check yes, Juliet kill the limbo I'll keep tossing rocks at your window there's no turning back for us tonight lace off your shoes here's how we do run, baby, run don't ever look back no terrorists, you give them the chance don't tell your voice don't say we're not meant to be run baby, run forever will be seemingly done really easily found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world?
[00:25:09] And good for you. I guess that you've been working on yourself. I guess. The therapist I found for you, she really helped. Now you can be a better man for your brand new girl.
[00:25:21] But good for you. You look happy and healthy. Not me. If you ever care, dad. Good for you. You're doing great. I do without me, baby I wish that I can do that I'm in the business of misery let's take it from the top she's got a body like an hourglass sticking like a clock it's a matter of time before we all run out when I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth I waited a long while she finally set him free I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one two weeks we couldn't find just get it out for me. But I wear the biggest smile wow. Whatever makes it great. But I got it where I want it now? Wow. It was never my intention to brag?
[00:26:21] Steal it all away from you now?
[00:26:23] But God doesn't feel so good? Cause I got it when I want it now? And if you're good then you know you would?
[00:26:32] It's gotta just feel so.
[00:26:35] It just feels so good?
[00:26:39] Second chances, they don't never matter people never change what's the whore? You're nothing more. I'm sorry. That'll never change. And about forgiveness? We're both supposed to have a shame. Sorry, honey, but I pass it up. Now look this way, there's a million other girls that do it just like you. Looking as innocent as possible to get to who they want and what they like. It's easy if you do it right? Well, I refuse, I refuse, I refuse.
[00:27:05] Whoa, whatever makes it great? But I got it where I want it now? Wow, it was never my intention to break?
[00:27:14] Steal it all away from you now?
[00:27:17] Because it feels so good? Cause I got it when I want it right now? And because it didn't know you? I just feel so it just feels so good?
[00:27:38] Oh, well. Imagine as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor and I can't help but to hear no, I can't help but to hear in exchanging of words what a beautiful wedding what a beautiful wedding? Says a bride's made to wait but what a shame what a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore I chime in with the. Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door? No. It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of voice and rationality I shine in haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door? No. Much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of.
[00:28:24] Well, in fact, we'll all look at it this way. I mean, technically, our marriage is saved. Well, this calls for a toast. Soul, pour the champagne.
[00:28:35] Well, in fact, well, I'll look at it this way. I mean, technically, our marriage is dazed. Well, this calls for a toast. So pour the champagne, pour the champagne.
[00:28:57] I chime in with the heavens? You people ever heard of closing a goddamn door? No. It's much better to face these things cause of things with a sense of poison. Rationality, I shine in. Happy few people heard of closing a goddamn door? No. It's much better to face these kinds of things with a set of one.
[00:29:41] Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door? No. It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poison. Rationality how did you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door? No. Much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of woah.
